New passion. (50mm)

p.s: Dealing with pictures and camera has made me to forget my past. =')

I need someone to guide me back

"Bagai jatuh ditimpa tangga"

A proverb which I shall say describing me pretty well at the moment.
A proverb which I have to agree illustrating every inch of depression that I am goin' through now.

[Well, it might not as bad as how I think, but, that's what I feel]

Pathetic? Yes people! You are absolutely true.
I could sense that I am significantly screwed up with number of things.

I had a big-time of sucky week.
I had an unsatisfied assignment result which I considered as sucky.
and
yes, I will probably face few upcoming sucky moments lagi lepas ni.

Lately, things are not happy working on my way.
I had lotsa disagreements with stuffs especially things that involve my emotion.
Yes, I know and I dont' need to consolidate it. World does not revolve around us. A fact which I am completely aware about . I could not dictate every single of thing to do as I said.

I could not ask people to like me.
I could not expect to win every match that I play in FIFA.
I could not even ask my lecturer to give me A for every assignment.

Tapi, can I just have something 'meaningful' that would make me to feel sort of
"Yes, zam. It's fine. You are doing all right,"
"It doesn't matter. You are doing great, zam"

Can I have those feelings?
Can I have someone (which I used to have) to pat on my back and tell that to me?

Yes, at this point, I admit that I might sound a lil bit childish.
A boy who still looks for his mum's help.

Tapi, honestly, I really feel helpless and somehow hopeless now.
Plz, I need someone to guide me back.

Learn.

People learn.
We learn.
You learn.
I learn.
Everybody.

But, how many of us could ensure that we really learn and look well after the process? Do we reach to the extent of reflecting for every single that happen in our chapter of life?

p.s: At this point of time, it might be something good to have somebody that I could talk with. Really.

silence period.

I know,
it has been a while or I shall say, very ages I didn't post anything here.
Updates, current news, feelings. No, not any.
I have made less contacts with my blog and the others as well.
Reason? Hmm.
Perhaps, it's just me do not feel inspiring to write anything.
But, yeah, when the time comes, I'll be back to write again.


Take care everyone.

We live alone.

When you think that
you are needed,
actually you are not.

When you feel that
you are strong enough to against and overcome things,
actually you are not.

When you believe that
you could stand as tall as you can,
actually you are not.

and

When you think that
you could be part of them,
maybe it'll just remain as a dream.

We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.

I learn.

As time passes by, I could not resist,
life has given me so much of things which I believe,
might be too tacit to be written in books.
Covert and overt, from one to two,
I learn a bundle of knowledge, moral values, humanistic sense
which are hardly to gain.

Days after days,
minutes after minutes.
from reds to greens,
from light to dark.

I learn better to respect the eldest regardless their societies boundaries.
I learn better to understand and appreciate people by looking at their eyes.
I learn better to sacrifice myself to redeem for others' happiness.
I learn better to distinguish between hopes, dreams and moments.
I learn better to put more smiles on face even though I might hurt.
I learn better to shed the tears and hide my feelings deep into my heart.
I learn better to judge and evaluate things from a huge array of perspectives.
I learn better to use the curse words in appropriate way and time.

This list might go on and on as how the time passes by.
Even though, I might choose to stop learning,
yet the minutes are still ticking,
yet the days are definitely still passing.
That shows life must go on no matter how mess it is.

'Life is too short, so go harder'

Finally.

Presenting,
My new fav.

TAG Heuer Grand Carrera Calibre 17RS2

CORUM ADMIRAL CUP

p.s: Finally, they are in my collection.