Two.

Two things that I feel everybody should have realized since the first day of their born:

1. Dreaming is just a part of sleeping game. It's hardly to be truth.
2. People frequently come, but they always go.

Congratulation.

Twas sort of a depressing day for me yesterday. Pretty sudden. But that's not really the intention of me writing this post today.

In this short post, I would like to congratulate to all these my lovely people for their excellent achievement during our two years in Brisbane. Man! I know I did not get a chance to congratulate to each of you, but let's make this an official collective wish from me to everyone of you.

You guys really deserve for the award, and everything seemed paid off.

*Clap2*

- Pavi.
- Erma.
- Hanis.
- Kak Long.
- Aisyah.
- Nija.
- Dyane.

p.s: Come to think of it, I wonder what I have done in Brisbane for two years. LOL.

Menjadi terbaik adalah pilihan yang tidak semua orang ada.

OK.
Saya sedikit terkilan hari ini. Atas sebab-sebab tertentu.
Bukan sebab yang besar pun.

Sebab yang kecil,
tapi membuat saya terfikir hampir segala perkara dalam hidup ini.


Begini, saya cuba menyelamatkan seekor anak kucing hari ini.
Comel. Gebu. Cantik.
Kekelabuan dan sedikit belang-belang hitam dibelakang badannya.
Tapi, kelihatan malang. Kakinya patah. Berjalan pun ala-ala Man Dengkot.
Memang Kasihan.

Emak didalam kereta.
"Nampak anak kucing itu" sambil menuding jari.

Saya terpusing-pusing.
"Mana?"
Terpusing lagi.

"Dibawah kereta Harrier itu. Mata kau buta ke?"
Sedikit radikal jawapannya kali ini.
Biasalah, kami memang typical orang johor.
Bukan pemarah sahaja, bergurau pun kadang-kadang ala-ala gurau kera.
Memang keras.

OK,saya sambung semula.

"Oh, nampak. Kasihan. Macam patah je kakinya"

"Nak buat pahala?"
Mak mengutarakan cadangan.

Tiba-tiba.
Menggunakan perkataan yang memeranjatkan spiritual saya.
Sedikit blur.

Tiba-tiba sekali lagi,
mentol muncul dihujung kepala.

"Ohhhh"
Sepantas kilat,saya dengan lantasnya turun dari kereta, membuka bonet, dan terus mencapai beberapa helai tisu (OK, hampir satu kotak tisu sebenarnya).

Orang ramai mula mendongak-dongak kepalanya. Menunjuk-nunjuk jari.
Melihat saya. M
elihat macam tidak pernah melihat orang. Ish.

"Budus!" Hamun dalam hati saya.

Saya peduli apa. Pahala punya pasal.
Saya terus bergerak,
dan terus bergerak menuju ke anak kucing itu.
Duduk sahaja si kecil itu.
Diam.

Tiba-tiba, Harrier bergerak.

"Chill uncle! Ada anak kucing dekat bawah kereta ni"
Pakcik senyum.
Saya masih dgn muka ketat.
Misi sedikit terganggu.

OK.
Kereta dah tiada.
Si kecil masih disitu.
Sakit sangat agaknya.

Tiba-tiba,
ada suara lantang perempuan dari belakang.

"Ada monyet"

*Ish, menganggu betul. Misi penting ni.Mahu jadi hero pun susah*

Saya paling ke belakang.

"What da heck! Monyet dowh"

*Mula mengira*

"Lapan kot. Banyak nak mampus ni"

Tiba-tiba teringat cerita bayi kena bunuh dengan monyet.
Serius berlaku.

Mula sedikit panik.
Tapi, muka still ketat.
Tiba-tiba ada batu dkt sebelah.
*Dan-dan je banyak batu*
Scene semakin menarik.
*evil laugh dalam hati*

Berdiri dengan gagah. Batu ditangan.
Pencubaan gaya-gaya melontar batu-batu kearah monyet.
Sambil menghentak-hentak kaki dengan harapan gerombolan monyet itu lari.
Monyet tidak bergerak langsung.
Mula menunjuk gigi-gigi taring mereka.

Si kucing kecil masih dibelakang.

*Rasa macam dalam scene ala-ala abang cuba menyelamat adik daripada geng kaki pukul budak sekolah*

Saya cuba mara kali. Monyet-monyet semakin berani.
Mula kehadapan.

Saya mencarut.
"S*al!"

Emak didalam kereta mula menekan horn rapidly.
Tiba-tiba,
geng si monyet ini terus melompat.
Betul-betul dihadapan saya.

Saya sepatutnya menendang mereka.
Tapi, lupa cara nak menendang.
Biasalah,
macam kisah manusia-manusia yang melihat hantu,
nak baca Bismillah pun terlupa macam mana.
Adrenalin membuak-buakkan.

Kali ini,saya terus lari kearah kereta.

"Gila banyak. Boleh mati kena kerjakan woh"
Saya membebel.

Tiba-tiba sahaja,
2-3 ekor anjing yang entah datang dari mana.
Berlari menghalau monyet-monyet tersebut.

"Gila menarik siot"
saya membebel untuk kali kedua..


Monyet bertempiaran.
Ibu kucing pun tiba-tiba sampai.
Lewat.
Mungkin kerana susah mahu negotiate dengan si anjing-anjing itu.
Maklumlah, both cats and dogs families have bad history kan.


Akhirnya,
si ibu membawa si kecil pergi.
Selamat.
Anjing-anjing itu pula hilang kisah.
Mungkin selamat rasanya.

Saya tersentak.
Terfikir sejenak.
Seminit dua.
Mungkin inilah apa yang orang kata.
Menjadi terbaik itu bukan pilihan yang semua orang ada setiap masa.

Kadang-kadang kita hanya mampu menjadi yang baik sahaja atau even worst menjadi slightly cruel demi untuk mencapai sesuatu.

Macam incident siang tadi, saya cuba mahu menyelamatkan si kucing kecil itu.
Dengan niat dan harapan, tidak mahu ia dilanggar kereta lain.
Tapi, beberapa perkara sampingan terjadi.
Segerombolan monyet datang menyerang.
Mungkin ia dugaan.
Tapi, saya rasa ia bukan dugaan ataupun

Mungkin,
mungkin sahaja,
Tuhan sudah takdirkan yang hari ini saya tidak dapat menyelamatkan si kucing kecil itu. Mungkin di hari lain.

Ya,saya mungkin ada niat yang baik.
Tapi,
mungkin Tuhan sudah sekali lagi takdirkan anjing-anjing itu adalah penyelamat kucing kecil itu.
Lantas merangkap gelaran 'Si Terbaik' dalam kejadian itu.
Dan saya pula, mungkin hanya yang 'Si baik-baik' sahaja.

=)

Moral of stories: Lain kali jangan cuba-cuba interfere dalam hal-hal haiwan. Mereka ada penyelesaian mereka sendiri.

p.s: Semoga kamu selamat ye Si Kecil.

A while.

It has been a while.
I miss nearly everything.
You even more.

Saya mungkin seperti dungu.

"Kadang-kadang saya benci awak"

Awak selalu merendah-rendahkan saya.

Menghina saya.

Panggil saya dungu.

Sebab saya selalu diam.

Panggil saya bodoh.

Sebab saya selalu mengalah.

Tapi,

Awak tahu kenapa saya selalu diam?

Saya diam bukan bermakna saya mengikut ataupun suka,

tetapi itulah cara saya menyatakan saya tidak bersetuju.

Awak tahu kenapa saya selalu mengalah?

Saya mengalah bukan bermakna saya penakut ataupun 'bacul',

tetapi itulah cara saya mengelakkan konflik.

Awak dan saya mungkin seperti sama,

ada rambut,

ada tangan dan kaki,

ada mulut,

tapi,

saya percaya,

hati dan pemikiran kita sangat berbeza.

2 hours

"Are you crying for me today?"

That was:

the last time I stepped my feet at QUT and talked to the staffs,

the last time I walked pass by the Valley with no bags of chickens with me,

the last time I talked to friendly JB-Hifi assistant and laughed out of loud,

the last time I said "Thanx Mate. Have a good day" to bus driver.

the last time I had Krispy Kreme and sushi.

the last time I smiled to an innocent Korean Easy Way seller.

the last time for everything, here in Brisvegas.

*Tears*

p.s: When can we meet again?

1

"A fine young man who has great sensitivity about life"

p.s: Prayers for you mum (Jo Carr)

6

"I don't want to talk about how you broke my heart"

1. ah, I was quite busy hanging out with few mates these days. Playing game console, having coffees and etc. It was just so good to really have these remaining days left recalling the all good and sad moments from the beginning we first arrived here in Brisbane until now. Twas indeed a very much emotional conversation, but seemed trying to hinder those upsetting feelings with the best jokes and laughters that we could do. =)

2. Another 6 more days left, still reluctantly counting. *sigh* Oh, Mr. Time, you know that I never ask anything big from you since I was a toddler. I was still moving patiently; even though, you were slightly cruel to me when I was run out of times doing the assignment. But, this time, I just need you to move slower than usual. Plz?

*I must be crazy talking stuffs like these*

3. Ah, just put that feeling aside at the moment. Yes, yesterday was the best day being me as Mohd Zamri, probably the happiest one so far. Checking the results, and Allhamdulilah, I think I improved and in fact did quite well for this one hectic semester. Even though it might not be as good and best as how my other mates did; I am still proud of myself and definitely grateful to Him. The patience, the anxiousness and the almost-give-up feeling - they are just paid off. =). Praise to God, again.

It's just so good if I could have a person that I could really share this happiness with.

7 (Yesterday)

"The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase, if you pursue happiness you'll never find it"

PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS? OR CREATING THE HAPPINESS?

1. Never let anyone tell you that your dream is too far from reach.

2. Never let the bitterness of others influence your decisions to have the life you want.

3. Never allow the insecurities of others creep into your mind to let them overtake your own.

4. Never forget your dreams.

5. Never believe that one person, no matter how convincing they may be, has all the answers.

6. Never forget how lucky you are to have a passion- lots of people never find theirs.

7. Always know that what scares you is usually what will make you better.

8. Always remember what makes you happy.

(Amanda, 2010)

9

"I like you"

10

Sayu sungguh hati ini malam ini.

Entah kenapa.

Bila cuba melelapkan mata,

tidak pula tidur hendaknya.

Ah mengapa sahaja hati ini.

Rasa seolah-olah malam ini tidak seperti malam yang biasa.

Sungguh sayu.

Benar.

p.s: I do realise too that I get easily f*ck up lately.

12

"The most sexiest about a girl is her confidence"

Finally, a handbag for mum. Ah, I'm just so happy.

13 (Yesterday)

"Are you an American? You just sound one"

Ah, twas another fun in this week. Hanging around with good friends at good places.

Harbour town.

Surfer Paradise.

Hardrock Cafe.

Alas, when are we going to meet again?

15 (Yesterday). 14 (Today)

"Kita ini hidup bukan menongkat dunia"

Translation: We don't just live forever in this world.

I have a review of movie which I supposed to post it yesterday, but for some reasons, I couldn't finish writing it. Too tired. Ah, I promise I'll post it soon.

Anyway, I would like to wish all the Moslems 'Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha'. May you enjoy and have good moments with the beloved ones. =)

p.s: Oh, my final raya celebration here in Brisbane.

16

"As long as we respect each other, everything will be just OK"

A: Do you feel jealous seeing me talking to that guy?

B: No, I'm not. I was just...

*She immediately interfered before that guy could finish his words.*

A: Good! Ah, you don't have to. You and me, we are just good friends. Nothing special!

*B left with genuine disappointment*

p.s: Too much of drama series today.

17

"Keep blogging"

1. Ah, another lovely and fun day apart from meeting Jo on the other day. Fa and her friend are finally here in Brisbane. Smile. Twas just so good to see her again after our last winter holiday in New Zealand. *Welcome2!*. So, since I wanted to get some groceries stuff, we went to West End morning market today. Bringing them around and feeling the aussie weekend routine. Hehe. It seemed to be fun, I mean walking and passing by random people and others. Plus, that was my 2nd time there even though I hv been living here for almost 2years.

2. Yeah, we walked from one stall to another stall. So, I stopped at this one selling fruit stall looking for the mangoes. 2 ripe mangoes for 5aud. Who care not to stop, aye?. LOL. As I was busy looking at them, suddenly, someone tapped me from back. She smiled. I was freeze at the moment. Ah, I know her, but God, how couldn't I remember her name. She kept smiling again.

3. Gosh! My brain was so stuck and I really could not recall her name. I could only remember her last name which is 'Siong'.

She asked "Do you know me?".

"Ah, of course I know you" I whispered.

*me thinking. Keep thinking vigorously*

"It's me, Jody" She said.

*I smiled*

Yeah, it's Jody. How I could have forgotten that name! Me idiot! My profoundest apology, missy. So, we talked for a while and the mangoes were put aside for a moment. Asking about studies, workplace, life in brief and etc. Such a nice girl, I believe. Very friendly, humble and definitely easy-going person. For your information, that was our first meeting each other ever, which means, we never talked face-to-face before and it happened today unexpectedly. We have been knowing each other through blogging and friends in Facebook. So, I was quietly excited; even though I looked quite freeze and stumble a bit in front of her. LOL. Anyway, twas indeed really nice meeting and talking to you, Jody. We should probably have some cups of coffees before I'm heading back for good.

4. Ah, what really a good day today! Having good friends around, meeting new people, welcoming environment and definitely a good weather.

Can anyone tell me, how can I have no reason to stay here in Brisbane.

18

"Even SHREK still deserves for happy ending"

Saya suka malam tadi.

Berjalan-jalan seorang diri di QUT.

Senyap sahaja, tapi tetap indah.

Bintang-bintang pun berkerlipan pada saya.

Mungkin, sudah lama kita tidak bersua katanya.

Yelah, sejak saya sudah berpindah. Jarang sungguh saya berjalan

diwaktu-waktu begitu.

"Hai bintang! Saya rindu awak semua"

Saya senyum.

Eh, kucing itu masih ada lagi disitu.

Betul! Si tompok yang kelihatan seperti sombong tetapi penakut. Heh.

Dia hanya keluar waktu malam sahaja.

Kasihan. Mungkin, disiang hari terlalu banyak haiwan berbulu besar yang lain.

Si anjing. Yang gebu dan terjelir lidahnya.

Jaga diri ya, si tompok.

Saya akan pulang tidak lama lagi. Oh, bila entah kita akan berjumpa lagi?

Saya pasti akan merindui semua ini.

Woolies. Kebab O'clock. Creative industries. Lain-lain lagi.

Setiap satunya.

Ah, kenapa hari berlalu dengan begitu pantas?

19

"Make the best of what we have"

1. Today was just too lovely to be compared with the other boring days that I went through lately. I woke my a** up quite early this morning, went to uni and met mum (Jo Carr) in her room. Ah, what a happy lady she is! Welcoming me with her big smiles and definitely healthy this time.

* She has been sick lately; so, seeing her around healthily this time somehow makes me to feel good and happy too*

2. The conversation was pretty casual. No pressure, and Jo is always motherly when it comes to a leisure talk. She could fully lend all the ears and give some wise words to us if she felt so. So, we talked a lil bit about our academic stuffs at the beginning, but towards the end we moved slowly talking about myself and herself. She was telling that she'll be retiring possibly end of this year in December. Ah, twas indeed a shocked one, I mean really a sudden decision. I was recently being informed that our coordinator in Malaysia has been replaced with a new man, and today, I got to know that she's going to 'leave' us too. Hmm, how could I not to feel at least 'missing something' feeling . "It's time, zam. Let me be a good grandma and play more happy musics". I smiled. Ah, she's probably in many ways. She would need a proper rest after so long managing and coordinating this twinning program. Yup, for many years, since my seniors times, I could see a lot of her great contributions on this program besides the other important people like Bob, Jan and Mary. She must've been tired, I reckon. Plus, her health condition seems to be finer if she could have more rests and play with the grandchildren.

3. Ah, don't you worry about us, Jo. Even though knowing that you're retiring from academic field might sounds a bit bitter to me, but I'm absolutely happy for you and so the others too, I bet. Thank you very much for everything that you have provided for me here since the beginning. Your inspiring words, your lovely pats on the back, everything. My sincerely thank you. I'll be missing you very badly.

Take care, madame.=')

Play more musics.

20

"If everyone could think, there might be less conflicts or zero war"

20 more days left exactly from today before I'm leaving Brisbane for good.

*Now I know precisely how the seniors used to feel*

Every night, I'm thinking hardly to have at least a reason that can make me to stay here.

Not because of entertainment and freedom that it offers, but because of the place itself.

I just love Brisbane as B.R.I.S.B.A.N.E.

Indeed, a very lay back, peaceful and welcoming place.

Unsurprisingly, Brisbane has been a very good and wonderful 'teacher' for me teaching about how life works.

For some cultural and humanistic reasons, I feel more appreciated and acknowledge here.

I have learnt about the real friendship who could be with you through thin and thick,

not only among the local people but in thinking-Malaysian group as well.

No matter where I go; I could feel a strong sense of belonging.

I am being called politely as a 'mate' rather than inappropriate terms or adjectives.

ah, there are just too many random friendly people who could say hello to you for not a big reason.

How am I going to leave these good things for certain of somethings which I think they shouldn't work that way?

Yes, I miss mum, dad, and the whole family.

I miss the foods.

I miss breathing in my country, who doesn't?

but, definitely not the inappropriate attitudes which I think 'certain of them' still fail to overcome.

Lack of sense of respect.

Lack of good manners.

Lack of here and there as a basic human being.

ah, if this 'certain of them' could do at least a rational thinking for them, probably it is a good place that invites everyone to come.

p.s: Well, I'm still looking the right euphemism for this 'certain of them'.

Finally.

Presenting,
My new fav.

TAG Heuer Grand Carrera Calibre 17RS2

CORUM ADMIRAL CUP

p.s: Finally, they are in my collection.