No. 3

F you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.

2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.

3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.

4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.

5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.

6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.

7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.

8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.

9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1

You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous

on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You

always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most

likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are

likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most

likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a

spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you

will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of

the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in

your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &

your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a

pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match

would be with 3,5,7

Number 2

No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You

day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for

every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change

according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of

musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet

as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a

sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You

are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you

settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you

are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will

sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad

vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no

other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3

You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots

of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope

with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you

would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a

point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are

not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But

once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You

always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and

problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love

money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look

after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being

generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,

creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

Number 4

You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in

life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause

nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other

people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you

are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too

much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and

get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You

love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family

and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live

with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be

careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And

beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a

hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good

match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5

You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your

enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will

be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will

always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help

your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down

you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are

married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with

anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You

learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good

match 6, 8.

Number 6

Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you

always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either

education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people

who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your

mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But

if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships

until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged

early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person

of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and

after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because

you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step

further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7

You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,

singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value

your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain

age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces

lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have

everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to

get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you

might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your

best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4

Number 8

You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand

you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the

one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way

through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who

will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very

reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and

always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often

late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems

such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-

disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take

you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your

Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5

Number 9

You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,

physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will

think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!

Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will

have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very

naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been

involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when

you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho

type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or

banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but

you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are

humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve

targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model

for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match

This man literally feels to cry.

During my Cohort 5 farewell dinner speech, I did quote one of this most inspiring figure called Steve Job.

This man, which I think not everybody loves, but strangely effects me in some ways of life.

His last words before he got to close his eyes.

"Oh, wow! Oh, wow! Oh, wow!"

Very strange indeed. Quite a 'special' way of saying goodbye, which I think not everybody would think of.

and now, when I think I am so screwed up,
how I wish I could do as him.

p.s: An 'intrapersonal' man seems stupid at the beginning, but appears to be the smart one at the end. But, lets think what happen between the beginning until its end. He is probably a man who might suffer most the life crisis.

you don't think so.

Some little things from someone that I care make me feeling better eventhough you might not think so.

hm.

Twitter.

I tweet a lot these days.

and Randi Zuckerberg is a sister to Mark. meh?

Big A.

Do we actually realise that without us knowing, certain people might find us a bit Annoying?

Today. Tomorrow.

Say you?

This is Life we are talking about.

Out of so many questions, this is one of the questions which I don't think I still have the right answer yet.

"What exactly is the reason that you are still single at the age of 23?"

Some people have been kept asking, and I could just spill any relevant answer though; come to think of it, does the given answer actually match the intuition as a being?



kalau aku terlambat untuknya dalam kelahiran ini. aku doakan untuk kelahiran seterusnya (Handkerchief Merah, 2011)

Said him.

seorang budak perempuan kecil

riben merah dirambutnya

manis senyumnya

dan matanya pesona

seorang budak lelaki kecil

bruises di kaki gempalnya

lesung pipit dipangkal senyumnya

dan matanya berkaca

bila cinta temukan mereka

budak lelaki dan perempuan itu

cantumkan senyuman mereka

pegang tangan dan langkah bersama

lori ikan datang

dan gilis kedua mereka

mati katak lalu terkeluar otak

namun tetap comel jua

dunia selalu begitu

celaka dimana-mana

(Handkerchief Merah, 2011)

Gloomy.

Second day of last week of practical.

The gloomy weather.

It will be never the same on next week, on the same day.

Could be true.

The successful ones always try to create some histories.

Mugen.

Bisikan suara kecil selepas membaca suatu artikel:

"Jangan dipersoalkan bagaimana nikmat itu diberi. Tuhan itu, jika dia hendak memberi hidayah, walau kita sekalipun sedang beri, dia tetap akan memberinya,"

*Beri : Membuang air besar.

Fav line.

For some reasons, I simply love watching Rocky Balboa movie. Yesterday was actually my 5 or 6th times since the first time it had been released; one of the most top watching movies in my list after Fast and furious. It gives lotsa impacts to me not just because its storyline, but also the employment of its philosophical lines and plenty of useful msgs.

I particularly envy this one line during his struggling to fight his less-gentleman opponent in the ring in the final scene.

"Remember, what did you tell your kid? It's not a matter how hard you can hit, it's how hard you can stand the hits"

A little confession.

I don't actually find having a special relationship is the most necessary for now, but it has been quite bothering me in some ways these days.

Real honest.

Thank you.

Alhamdulilah.

The bet is totally paid off.

Kids behaved and cooperated very well during the session.

Supervisor is happy too.

Alhamdulilah.

Thank you kids.

My graceful bet

Rotational learning is the bet for tomorrow. Let's see how it goes.

Short and sweet

Cukup indah mimpi tadi; walaupun sebentar.

Ber'busking' di Queenstreet.
Stargazing di QUT.
Banyak lagi.

Indahnya.

Please understand.

Please understand that I rarely talk and share my things with others.

So, whenever I tell you that I need you, that shows I really need you.

The kids need me.

I could actually be the laziest bum on earth to a certain extent, I would say.

Every morning, as in early in the morning, the only thing that motivates me to move from bed is "The kids need me in school"

Yes, that could be the most cliche ever; if you assumed being an effective educator is that easy (shake the bon-bons and stuffs), why don't you give yourself at least a shot?

Stop being judgemental.

"@FactAboutBoyz: Three biggest lies from a guy's mouth: 1. I'm not that type of guy. 2. I won't hurt you. 3. I'm sorry."

No one is perfect though, but come on. Don't make this as a sweeping statement to every man just because you met the wrong person. Get yourself out from your own narrow-mindedness, and start to deeply think from various perspectives.

Well, you can't actually deny the fact that everyone lies at least 12times per day (This is definitely not a sweeping statement as how you made it; I came across this somewhere in gender research paper). So, the lies of "Im not that type of PERSON", "I won't hurt you" and "Im sorry", I believe do not solely come from the 'a guys' mouth', but it also probably,or I would say WILL come from the other direction which is 'GIRLS'.

Think wisely before you being pointlessly vocal.

Kids.

Place: Year 4 Gemilang.

Situation :

During monthly test (Students surprisingly finished the papers minutes earlier).

Me: All right, I would like all of you to make sure that you check your papers back. Make sure all the answers and spellings are correct. OK?

Student A (very smart-looking kid): The papers are very thick sir, but questions are easy.

Me: *Feel challenging* OK, If that's the case, make sure you got hundred. If one of you happened to fail the paper, I might call your mum.

Student B : Sir, saya beri handphone no mak saya dulu ye? Sbb, sy confirm fail. (Translation: Sir, why don't I give you my mum's handphone no first? Because, I know that I will fail)

Me: Student B, check your answer again. Make sure everything is correct. Sternly smile. *They are just being kids* =)

Bored.

I am a happy man if I were asked to be in class now; meeting with kids and do some teachings rather than just rotting at the staffroom.

Not a good day to start.

Beranikah engkau?

Ini bukanlah permulaan,

bukan juga pertengahan,

mahupun pengakhiran.

Ini mungkin perjalanan atau sesuatu yang engkau langsung tidak pernah fikirkan.

Beranikah engkau?

The world is getting interesting.

Si Abang dan si Adik perlu ingat. Dikala ayah sedang sakit, mengapa kalian perlu bertelagah?

Sebagai seorang yang rapat, saya faham situasi anda.

Si Abang: Kamu seorang yang baran, boleh berkelakuan kurang rasional pada waktu tertentu. Tetapi, saya yakin anda boleh lebih bersabar. Anda juga boleh saya katakan lebih bertanggungjawab berbanding yang lain-lain.

Si Adik (Perempuan): Kamu pula, susah saya hendak gambarkan. Ego yang melampau-lampau. Suka memberontak. Entahlah. Tetapi, cuba melatih diri untuk bersabar? Sebab dunia ini dijadikan untuk kongsi bersama.

Si Ayah: Sakit.

Saya pula, tidak boleh terlalu masuk campur didalam hal kamu si Abang dan si Adik. Tetapi, boleh ke tidak kamu berdua cuba bersabar? Tidak banyak saya pinta, cuma bersabar dan sedikit bertoleransi. Sekurang-kurangnya untuk situasi ini.

Fahamkan?

p.s: Jika semua orang boleh berfikir dengan lebih rasional, mungkin peperangan dan konfliks akan kurang berlaku. Mungkin?

ain't in a mood.

Yes, certain things on Facebook really get me pissed off.

Maybe I should deactivate it for a while.

Chapter 101 - Ini bukan masalah 'siapa lupa kawan', tapi sudah agak penat dipijak-pijak dan diperhanjingkan.

p.s: Maaf. Aku xsemudah itu.

New tweet: I f*cking hate you.

Yes, twitter is definitely not so a new thing for most people even for me. I have registered for a twitter account like very ages ago, but for some reasons I don't really find it that fancy (Well, probably because everyone was excitedly talking more about FB rather than twitter during that time). So yesterday, when I tried to make some efforts logging in into my account; did some retweets and @mention, twitter is interesting though. Yes, it was odd, bizarre and strange kind of feeling at the beginning.

But, yes, it's slowly getting fun. =)

p.s: Yes, you keep crawling on my mind, and I f*cking hate it. Real honest.

B*bi!

B*bi!
B*bi!
B*bi!

Come to think of it, well, I don't think that I even lost any penny for your unethical act. Hearing that how serious you were cursing like shit at me (and hey, I am not saying that I do not swear); at least, I realize that I'm not being as cheap as you especially when it comes to a hanky-panky thing.

*Peace*

p.s: Hati perlu dididik; supaya kita tidak mudah melatah.

3.49pm, IPBA.

Mungkinkah?

Akhir-akhir ini, saya selalu terfikir.

Jika andaikata hari ini adalah hari terakhir untuk saya bernafas dengan diri ini, adakah atau mungkinkah saya diingati, dirindui pada hari-hari yang akan mendatang?

5.03pm, IPBA.

...

Makan hati dan bermain dengan perasaan.

R for ran-shit-ness.

When you think, being a hypocrite is a part of randomness, well, you are simply cheap in that way.

All right, maybe I'm wrong in that sense. Well, again, everyone has different views about randomness.

So, what say you?

50-50

Berjuang seorang diri mungkin tidak mudah.
Pastinya sukar.
Kemenangan pun mungkin 50-50.

Tidak percaya?
Cuba sendiri.

Tapi, kalau diiringi dengan 'sebilah pisau' dan sebatang panji',
mungkin,...
mungkin sahaja.
mungkin lebih bersemangat.
tidaklah seperti seolah-olah membunuh diri.

Terima kasih kerana mendoakan saya.
Terima kasih yang tidak terhingga.
Terima kasih.

Diam bukan bermakna noktah,

Maaf kerana tinggal tanpa berita. Saya sibuk, tapi saya OK.

Exam minggu hadapan. Doakan saya semoga berjaya.


p.s: Oh, saya menyedari akan penambahan followers saya. Terima kasih kepada anda semua.

Oh!

Bila sudah ber'bf', yang so-called fucking close friend pun ini diketepikan. Like you and me, we are just nothing.

p.s: The notion seems repeating like everyday these days among close mates. How strange is that.

...

Kalaulah saya mampu....

coolest?

Dr. A: You seem the coolest when some others look quite stressful dwelling about assignments in my class.

Me: Well, I guess, I'm just trying to be an optimist, perceive things positively. *Laugh*


p.s: Definitely no one knows how things can be a roller-coaster in everyone's heart.
p.s.s: And yes, this is definitely not a narcissistic post.

Busy week, ay?

It's another freaking busy week ay?

Syndromes have been identified:

Consistently yawning in lecture hall.
*even worst to listen from enthusiastic-yet-boring-yet-have-high-expectation-about-students lecturers*
Severely off-tasking. Even just looking at that frigging air conditioner.
And yes, pretty dearly to word.

Woh! another freaking week for a TESOL student. Again.

*I shall change 'Woh' to 'Sweet as!'*

Sweet as! another freaking week for a TESOL student. Again.

p.s: I'm pretty curios how 'Sweet as!' could magically turn me to be yes, slightly optimistic.

Happy?

"You are most afraid when you are happy"

The moment when Cuddy told that to House, I could feel that the message does not solely going to him; it came approaching me as well. Reflection for action, I believe. She really made sense of how certain things work in life which I have came across it before, but never care much to think in deep about it. That's probably a reason why we need the other person on our side, so that we could do the reality checks more often.

p.s: I believe that being yourself and trying to fulfill others' needs are both different notions.

little unusual

Things are seemed little unusual today.
For unknown reasons.

I don't know.
I just feel strange with everything around me.
The people, the routine, the morning.
It tastes bizarre
I feel somehow that I have lost something or perhaps missing.
I don't know
My headache is going pretty bad at the moment.
My hair does not go curl as how it always does.
I just don't talk much and rather spend myself alone in library or room.

Ah, I just don't do usual things that I always do.

non-perfect

Yes, I ain't a perfect creature,
but can we at least be a Good and Genuine person?

Well, don't call me a brat when you are the first one who started to act selfish.

Two.

Two things that I feel everybody should have realized since the first day of their born:

1. Dreaming is just a part of sleeping game. It's hardly to be truth.
2. People frequently come, but they always go.

Congratulation.

Twas sort of a depressing day for me yesterday. Pretty sudden. But that's not really the intention of me writing this post today.

In this short post, I would like to congratulate to all these my lovely people for their excellent achievement during our two years in Brisbane. Man! I know I did not get a chance to congratulate to each of you, but let's make this an official collective wish from me to everyone of you.

You guys really deserve for the award, and everything seemed paid off.

*Clap2*

- Pavi.
- Erma.
- Hanis.
- Kak Long.
- Aisyah.
- Nija.
- Dyane.

p.s: Come to think of it, I wonder what I have done in Brisbane for two years. LOL.

Less f*cked up.

I'm pretty considerate when it comes to dealing with messy life.

*OK, I probably burst out at times. Fair enough.*

But, most of the times, if anything didn't go that right or probably seemed looking wrong,
I love putting myself in a position of rationalization.
Rather than losing my own counts or even worst simply putting a blame to another person;
I prefer to do some productive reflection for my own future purpose.

Like:
Why That is not right?
Why always He/She is right?
Why Everything does not go in my own way?

These types of question, you won't find the answer in a very short period.
It might probably take longer than expected for you to discover the answer.

But trust me,
reflection always makes you to feel less f*cked up.
Don't shock, you might enjoy it!

A root as the Reflection.

If I were given a picture of tree to symbolize Life; I would say its root might pretty much explain the notion of Reflection.

p.s: There are always ups and definitely downs in life.

Bongeks.

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power."

(abraham lincon, n.d.)

Wise.
Simple, but indeed deep.

Hello Taman Megah! Bongeks.

Cynical.

Surprisingly, cynical is the best word I have so far. Fuh.

So, feel free to characterize me using your own words or probably whatever slang you might have (If you do). Heh.

===> http://threewords.me/thezam

Menjadi terbaik adalah pilihan yang tidak semua orang ada.

OK.
Saya sedikit terkilan hari ini. Atas sebab-sebab tertentu.
Bukan sebab yang besar pun.

Sebab yang kecil,
tapi membuat saya terfikir hampir segala perkara dalam hidup ini.


Begini, saya cuba menyelamatkan seekor anak kucing hari ini.
Comel. Gebu. Cantik.
Kekelabuan dan sedikit belang-belang hitam dibelakang badannya.
Tapi, kelihatan malang. Kakinya patah. Berjalan pun ala-ala Man Dengkot.
Memang Kasihan.

Emak didalam kereta.
"Nampak anak kucing itu" sambil menuding jari.

Saya terpusing-pusing.
"Mana?"
Terpusing lagi.

"Dibawah kereta Harrier itu. Mata kau buta ke?"
Sedikit radikal jawapannya kali ini.
Biasalah, kami memang typical orang johor.
Bukan pemarah sahaja, bergurau pun kadang-kadang ala-ala gurau kera.
Memang keras.

OK,saya sambung semula.

"Oh, nampak. Kasihan. Macam patah je kakinya"

"Nak buat pahala?"
Mak mengutarakan cadangan.

Tiba-tiba.
Menggunakan perkataan yang memeranjatkan spiritual saya.
Sedikit blur.

Tiba-tiba sekali lagi,
mentol muncul dihujung kepala.

"Ohhhh"
Sepantas kilat,saya dengan lantasnya turun dari kereta, membuka bonet, dan terus mencapai beberapa helai tisu (OK, hampir satu kotak tisu sebenarnya).

Orang ramai mula mendongak-dongak kepalanya. Menunjuk-nunjuk jari.
Melihat saya. M
elihat macam tidak pernah melihat orang. Ish.

"Budus!" Hamun dalam hati saya.

Saya peduli apa. Pahala punya pasal.
Saya terus bergerak,
dan terus bergerak menuju ke anak kucing itu.
Duduk sahaja si kecil itu.
Diam.

Tiba-tiba, Harrier bergerak.

"Chill uncle! Ada anak kucing dekat bawah kereta ni"
Pakcik senyum.
Saya masih dgn muka ketat.
Misi sedikit terganggu.

OK.
Kereta dah tiada.
Si kecil masih disitu.
Sakit sangat agaknya.

Tiba-tiba,
ada suara lantang perempuan dari belakang.

"Ada monyet"

*Ish, menganggu betul. Misi penting ni.Mahu jadi hero pun susah*

Saya paling ke belakang.

"What da heck! Monyet dowh"

*Mula mengira*

"Lapan kot. Banyak nak mampus ni"

Tiba-tiba teringat cerita bayi kena bunuh dengan monyet.
Serius berlaku.

Mula sedikit panik.
Tapi, muka still ketat.
Tiba-tiba ada batu dkt sebelah.
*Dan-dan je banyak batu*
Scene semakin menarik.
*evil laugh dalam hati*

Berdiri dengan gagah. Batu ditangan.
Pencubaan gaya-gaya melontar batu-batu kearah monyet.
Sambil menghentak-hentak kaki dengan harapan gerombolan monyet itu lari.
Monyet tidak bergerak langsung.
Mula menunjuk gigi-gigi taring mereka.

Si kucing kecil masih dibelakang.

*Rasa macam dalam scene ala-ala abang cuba menyelamat adik daripada geng kaki pukul budak sekolah*

Saya cuba mara kali. Monyet-monyet semakin berani.
Mula kehadapan.

Saya mencarut.
"S*al!"

Emak didalam kereta mula menekan horn rapidly.
Tiba-tiba,
geng si monyet ini terus melompat.
Betul-betul dihadapan saya.

Saya sepatutnya menendang mereka.
Tapi, lupa cara nak menendang.
Biasalah,
macam kisah manusia-manusia yang melihat hantu,
nak baca Bismillah pun terlupa macam mana.
Adrenalin membuak-buakkan.

Kali ini,saya terus lari kearah kereta.

"Gila banyak. Boleh mati kena kerjakan woh"
Saya membebel.

Tiba-tiba sahaja,
2-3 ekor anjing yang entah datang dari mana.
Berlari menghalau monyet-monyet tersebut.

"Gila menarik siot"
saya membebel untuk kali kedua..


Monyet bertempiaran.
Ibu kucing pun tiba-tiba sampai.
Lewat.
Mungkin kerana susah mahu negotiate dengan si anjing-anjing itu.
Maklumlah, both cats and dogs families have bad history kan.


Akhirnya,
si ibu membawa si kecil pergi.
Selamat.
Anjing-anjing itu pula hilang kisah.
Mungkin selamat rasanya.

Saya tersentak.
Terfikir sejenak.
Seminit dua.
Mungkin inilah apa yang orang kata.
Menjadi terbaik itu bukan pilihan yang semua orang ada setiap masa.

Kadang-kadang kita hanya mampu menjadi yang baik sahaja atau even worst menjadi slightly cruel demi untuk mencapai sesuatu.

Macam incident siang tadi, saya cuba mahu menyelamatkan si kucing kecil itu.
Dengan niat dan harapan, tidak mahu ia dilanggar kereta lain.
Tapi, beberapa perkara sampingan terjadi.
Segerombolan monyet datang menyerang.
Mungkin ia dugaan.
Tapi, saya rasa ia bukan dugaan ataupun

Mungkin,
mungkin sahaja,
Tuhan sudah takdirkan yang hari ini saya tidak dapat menyelamatkan si kucing kecil itu. Mungkin di hari lain.

Ya,saya mungkin ada niat yang baik.
Tapi,
mungkin Tuhan sudah sekali lagi takdirkan anjing-anjing itu adalah penyelamat kucing kecil itu.
Lantas merangkap gelaran 'Si Terbaik' dalam kejadian itu.
Dan saya pula, mungkin hanya yang 'Si baik-baik' sahaja.

=)

Moral of stories: Lain kali jangan cuba-cuba interfere dalam hal-hal haiwan. Mereka ada penyelesaian mereka sendiri.

p.s: Semoga kamu selamat ye Si Kecil.

Jangan tanya apa azam baru saya!

Sumpah, saya tak kan mampu tulis 10 azam baru untuk tahun baru jika saya diberi 1 minit untuk menyenaraikan mereka.
Betul.
Bukan otak saya bergerak lembab atau saya malas, cuma, saya kurang gemar mencipta azam baru setiap tahun.
Bila difikir-fikirkan, jika saya buat checklist, mungkin saya hanya mampu capai 2 atau 3 sahaja azam-azam itu.
So, daripada saya ada beribu-ribu azam baru yang saya mungkin tidak akan capai, baik saya bawa kehadapan sahaja azam-azam lama itu. InsyaAllah tercapai.

Mak sedikit 'bising' hari ini.
Bercerita tentang itu, tentang ini.
Saya hanya mendengar sahaja.
Mata saya tepat melihat screen laptop.
Surfing.
Tiba-tiba, tiada hujung pangkal, dia bertanya.

Mak: So, what's your new resolution?
saya: *Diam*
Mak: Hello?
Saya: Saya tiada azam tahun.
Mak: Macam mana boleh tiada azam? Maknanya you just live your life as it is la. Tiada matlamat.
Saya: Tak.
Mak: Habis tu?
Saya: OK,Saya mahu menjadi slightly cruel; therefore, I wont be toyed around by people.

Mak lihat saya dalam keadaan pelik.
*Saya pasti dalam hatinya mungkin dia rasa pelik kenapa dia ada anak lelaki yang pelik. Sedangkan ayahnya seperti normal sahaja*